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Big Dreamin’ – How God can turn a “hot mess” into a beautiful message. <3

I’m a hot mess. Even on my better days. But you know what makes me happy all over? The fact that God looks past OUR best and focuses on HIS best for us. He sees our full potential when we are struggling to see even a small part of the puzzle.

I don’t remember my dreams. Seriously guys, they’re usually the result of eating some weird combination of junk food before bed. So they’re totally random or I don’t remember them.

Not these dreams though. These have been more like visions. I’ve only experienced 4 of them, but I will never forget them. They were so vivid and detailed.  You need to know up front that my life verse is Jeremiah 29:11.  “For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”  God knew the plan long before you were planned. 

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Here’s an inside look:

Dream 1 – I was standing on stage. Tons of people in the audience. Lights glaring. But it was black and white and muted. Kinda odd, huh? I thought so too. I wrote it off. I’m a youth pastor’s wife. I was probably just announcing a speaker or praise team. Back to sleep..

Dream 2 – Full color, extremely detailed. I saw my outfit down to the jewelry and shoes I was sporting on stage. I was speaking. I. Was. Speaking. Oh my Lord, you’ve got the wrong girl. There’s no way that will ever be me. Can I wake up now??

Dream 3 – Ok, I’m sensing a pattern here. Full color, fully detailed, me speaking. Again. I was on stage. I had the mic. Me. I wasn’t announcing anyone. I was the speaker. Ok God, are you saying you want ME to speak for you? Are you sure you’ve got the right person? Have you prayed about this, Lord?

Dream 4 – This was the most recent and most detailed. I was laying in bed with the kids silently praying about our upcoming woman’s conference. God, what is the message you want shared? Who do you want to be involved? You know how sometimes you pray and pray and pray some more and wait a while to hear God’s answer? Not this time. It was instant. Yes. Instant. He gave me the theme and a few pieces of the puzzle. It was almost like an out of body experience (don’t get all weird on me.) There I was, pacing back and forth at church with the mic firmly gripped in my hand. Passionately proclaiming the Word of God. Oooook God, I hear you. Loud and clear. I’ll stop being stubborn. I’ll do this for you, even if it means doing it afraid.

Has God given you a dream? A plan? An idea that you just can’t shake?

Could it be that it’s His perfect plan for your life?

Fast forward. Present time. February 11th, 10:49am, 55 degrees, Trenton, FL. I just got off the phone with a woman who believes God has a divine plan for my life. And what’s crazy? She’s asked me to speak at her woman’s conference.

Fear Not

What’s the topic, you ask? FEAR. Yep. Fear. F-E-A-R. The thing that’s been holding me back. I’ve been afraid to step out. For various reasons, really. My past, my failures, my age..

God is up to something. And if we will step out of our fear and exercise our faith – beautiful things happen.

A woman was healed from a 12-year blood disease in an instant because she stepped beyond fear and grabbed the hem of Jesus’ clothes by faith. A man was healed because his friends weren’t afraid to tear the roof off the place where The Healer was teaching and lower their friend in faith to reach Him. The sun stood still for man named Joshua because he wasn’t afraid a to pray an impossible looking prayer of faith to a God who answered him.

If we want to see God move in a mighty way, we can’t let fear paralyze us. Faith stomps on fear. Faith eats fear for lunch.

And faith causes us to say “Yes, Lord” when someone asks us to share our story at a woman’s conference. About fear. Ohh yes, baby, yes. Only God can do these things. ❤

I’m so humbled, y’all. I’m just a small town girl who serves a big God. A 26-year-old who is ready to leave the past – the ugly, jagged past – behind her and step out in faith. As scary and messy as it looks, I refuse to let fear hold me back. I nailed that to the cross at the last conference.

Saying “yes” when it’s scary precedes big victories in the kingdom of God. Ask Rahab. Moses. Peter. Paul.

Ask Jesus.

All I can say is, GET READY! God is up to something and He wants to use YOU to reach people. Right where you are, right where you’ve been. He wants to turn your mess into a message. Because who knows this place like you do? You’re familiar with the struggles, fears and doubts. God wants to use you, beautiful. He really, really wants to use – y.o.u.

Can we place our faith in the hands of The Potter? Let’s do this together.

Have you stepped out in faith? I’d love to hear your story!

Live Life Unscripted,

❤ Brittany

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Guest Penny Bartee – Day 2 of Perspective Changes Everything!

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I’d like to introduce to you someone who has made such a huge impact in my life. This woman has spent countless hours with me in prayer, laughed until we’ve cried and rejoiced as God has brought us to exciting new doors to walk through.

One thing is for sure – Penny is a mighty woman of prayer. She loves Jesus and you can see Him illuminating the room through her contagious smile.

Meeting this incredible woman of God, you wouldn’t have a clue of the road she’s walked down. But she’s ready to share her story and we’re praying it will set you free!

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Me: You’ve never had it easy, that’s for sure. How early did the abuse start?

Penny: From the time I was a small child, I recognized that my father could love other children, yet he was verbally abusive to us. He was so cruel to my mother when her she became ill and it cost him money at the doctor. He was a workaholic and a control freak. He would go as far as writing down the mileage of the car as he left for work so he knew if she went anywhere. My father would never let her befriend anyone at church. Looking back, I think he was scared she would disclose what was going on at home. He was a different man at church than at home. And he hid it well.

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Me: As if the emotional and physical trauma wasn’t enough already, the beautiful life you had growing inside of you would never make it to your arms. Do you wonder what she looks like?

Penny: All the time. After I gave birth to my second child, Jamie, I always wondered if my daughter was normal. I wonder if she knows she was adopted. I never spoke to anyone about being pregnant. No one knew for years I had even had a child. I honestly thought for once I would have someone to love me. Then my father had the baby taken away from me the moment she was born. I’ve wondered if she’s struggled with weight because I always have. I’ve prayed she didn’t struggle with that. Every time I babysat someone’s kid’s I have thought about her, especially if they were girls.

Me: You and your father had quite the strained relationship. Tell us about the day your world stood still.

Penny: My father hadn’t felt well for some time and had been to the doctor. They couldn’t find anything wrong with him. I think he felt guilty for being so angry with my mother being sick and that guilt triggered his suicide. He couldn’t handle the pain he felt or the guilt of how cruel he was to my mother when she was sick. After talking with my brother and I for hours, he walked to the back of the house and I heard a noise from the back room. He laughed and said he was putting his pistol away and it went off. A few moments later I heard it again and he had shot himself with a shotgun. He had 4 days by himself at home but waited until I got home to do this. It was the ultimate rejection from my earthly father from a man who was supposed to love and nurture me.

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Me: You remind me so much of Job. He was tested time and time again, yet remained faithful to The Lord. Even when he had lost his family and his friends were kicking him while he was down, he continued to trust in God. Do you find it hard trusting God, your Heavenly Father, when your natural father abused and abandoned you?

Penny: Yes. I went to church and heard Psalm 139 and read for myself that I was wonderfully made by God and that He loved me with an everlasting love, but it was hard to grasp that concept. I compared God to my earthly father. And every relationship I had with a man followed that grueling path of abuse. God in heaven is nothing like our earthly father. God never abuses us. He never abandons us. He will never stop loving us. The bible says nothing separates us from the love of God.

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Me: Jamie is such a sweetie. And he LOVES the ladies! You said the devil has really fought you hard as a mother. Tell us a little about that.

Penny: I had seizures the whole time I was pregnant and Jamie was born with brain damage. I believed God was punishing me by giving me a disabled child for my promiscuity and giving my first born child away. The devil spoon-fed me those lies for years. But now I know that’s a lie straight from the pits of hell.

Me: For those going through a difficult situation right now, what advice would you give them?

Penny: What the enemy means for your bad, God will turn it around for your good. God definitely has a way of birthing something so spectacular through our pain. We just have to hold on. God has a way of wrapping all of our mess up into a ministry to set others free – if we will just let him. We can’t effectively minister to others until we have been there ourselves. We always have a choice. We can either get bitter or better. We can’t blame God for the decisions we have made, because we will reap what we sow. But it’s not God’s fault. What takes place in our lives is not to destroy us. It’s to help mold and make us for what God has called us to do. Everyone has a story to tell but not everyone shares it. We have learned to mask it and walk through the doors of the church and feel utterly alone. Everyone is hurting. We have to get real with God about ourselves before we get real and transparent with others. Thankfully, God uses cracked vessels.

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A big thank you to Penny Bartee for sharing her story with us! We pray you realize you are not alone in your situation. Struggling with suicide, abuse and emotional trauma for years, she has overcome by the blood of the Lamb and the words of her testimony. Revelations 12:11

Is God asking you to speak up? Listen for His voice. He loves you so much!

Live Life Unscripted,
❤ Brittany

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