Sitting here on a Wednesday night with my mind racing a mile a minute. I’m hurt, I’m broken-hearted, my mind is blown and I’m feeling challenged. Why? Hey, you all up in my kool aid and don’t even know tha flava. Back up off me. (Sorry, I had to let my inner gangsta out.) Why am I feeling this way? It really doesn’t matter. What matters is that I matter to God. And so do YOU.
People never cease to amaze me. Human life is so undervalued. I really can only scratch the surface of our failing humanity or I’ll be ranting and raving all night long. Either we undervalue ourselves as less than dung beetles or overcompensate where others have neglected us and have become egotistic monsters who get our energy from little shots of approval from anyone who will give us a second glance.
There are some things we just need to flush down the toilet – right now. Careful now, these may clog the bowl. Proceed with caution, you’ve been forewarned.
Flush # 1 – You will never, ever have approval of everyone you’re dying to get it from. The quicker you grasp this one and find the strength to live with this truth, the easier rejection will be to handle. Maybe. I’m still working the kinks out on this one.
There is one particular person very close to me who leaves me feeling so empty. Where they should be nurturing and be there for me, the silence is deafening. Their absence and lack of desire to be a present member in my life and my children’s lives hurts so deeply. Yet they’re there for everyone else. Except me. And.. Well. I’ll stop before their identity escapes.
Sometimes we have to accept the fact that people just can’t give what they don’t have. Maybe they were raised that way and they’re doing the best they know how, even when it doesn’t feel like it. Some way, some how, we have got to learn to cope with the emptiness from that relationship and pray God sends some amazing people to fill that void. Those times I’ve cried and hurt so bad, God has brought some incredible people into my life to mentor me and give me so much more than I was lacking. Embrace that. It’s God’s grace in action.
Flush # 2 – Life is not all about you. I hate to break it to you, but it’s really not, honey. God’s intention for our lives was completely opposite from this self absorption mentality and society we fumble around the dark in. We have to look a certain way, know certain things and carry ourselves a particular way in order to be accepted.
We are so confused. The Word says we were wonderfully created by our Savior and are to praise Him (Psalm 139:14). Instead, we crave that praise that is supposed to glorify God. We try to take credit for the talents and gifts placed within us by our Creator. Compliments go to our head and fill us up like helium, floating our humility far beyond the skyline. Get off your high horse, sister. Life doesn’t revolve around you 24/7.
It’s a start, and so many more things can be added to the Flush List. But, let’s start here and work through this together. Flush these mentalities down the toilet and see what God can birth in you. He’ll take you places you’ve never even dreamed of, baby.
“But, as it is written, “What no eye has seen, nor ear heard, nor the heart of man imagined, what God has prepared for those who love him.” 1 Corinthians 2:9-10
Living Life Unscripted,